亞伯拉罕的信心

今日又收到醫生電話，個心又沉一沉，又係講啲唔講啲，同我book appointment今個星期四約見，今次唔知會講咩，唔知報告係唔係有問題？  我仍然好驚，唉! 信心又失了。

天父，求袮賜我和朱先生有亞伯拉罕的信心。
“他將近百歲的時候，雖然想到自己的身體如同已死，撒拉的生育已經斷絕，
他的信心還是不軟弱；並且仰望神的應許，總沒有因不信心裡起疑惑，
反倒因信心裡得堅固，將榮耀歸給神，
且滿心相信神所應許的必能作成。（羅馬書4:19-21)”

Blessings

天父噚日係sunday worship 同restoration worship裡面用呢首詩歌安慰我，我完全唱唔到，因為我已經喊到豬頭咁，好多謝神的安慰，甚至Eileen講嘅sermon remind 我神的大能。Thank You Jesus.



Blessings - Laura
We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?

What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

And all the while You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?

And what if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can't satisfy?

And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?

神的安慰

等待真係好辛苦，但神的安慰無離開過我，下面呢段經文係第一次收到消息時，神給我的安慰，但當我在等待當中信心被動搖，神又藉著Wayne的口再次提醒我，唔係再次而係三次，因為Wayne將這段經文連續讀咗兩次，我知唔係偶然，而係神好清楚話我知佢對我的promise. Thank you Jesus!

詩篇146
我們要讚美耶和華！
我的心哪，你要讚美耶和華！
我一生要讚美耶和華！
我還活的時候要歌頌我的神！
你們不要倚靠君王，不要倚靠世人；他一點不能幫助。
他的氣一斷，就歸回塵土；他所打算的，當日就消滅了。
以雅各的神為幫助、仰望耶和華他神的，這人便為有福！
耶和華造天、地、海，和其中的萬物；他守誠實，直到永遠。
他為受屈的伸冤，賜食物與飢餓的。耶和華釋放被囚的；
耶和華開了瞎子的眼睛；耶和華扶起被壓下的人。
耶和華喜愛義人。
耶和華保護寄居的，扶持孤兒和寡婦，卻使惡人的道路彎曲。
耶和華要作王，直到永遠！
錫安哪，你的神要作王，直到萬代！你們要讚美耶和華！

個心好痛

今日又收到醫生電話，佢會幫我約時間抽羊水檢查，簡值又將我同Alex跌落谷底，個心好痛。
我好驚細B朱有事，真係好驚，我唔明點解每一次pregnancy都唔好過，今次我唔知向天父講咩好，只懂係到大喊。
“聖靈啊，求袮來，我軟弱，袮明白，
我無言，袮嘆息，親自為我代求。”

晴天霹靂

今日收到醫生電話，我驗血報告發現細B朱有可能有“唐氏綜合症”，我同Alex聽到呢個消息晴天霹靂，我不斷問自己點解會咁架，係唔係我做錯事所以撹到BB咁呀？係唔係神罰我唔聽佢話？係唔係我家族所犯嘅罪累到BB呀？
我不斷哭不斷哭不斷祈禱認罪，攬住BB朱同朱先生不斷哭，大家咩都做唔到，只有交托俾神。
pray that 呢個星期五ultrasound結果一切正常。
Please keep it in secret, we won't wanna our family know that cuz we don wanna them worry.

BB朱自己預備沖涼涼

時間真快，BB朱話咁快16個月啦!
佢開始學嘢好快，同埋佢好跟routine，就好似夜晚食完飯同佢玩陣，跟住佢自己自動自覺攞張chair去厠所, 然後又知道條抺身毛巾係邊，跟住攞堆去厠所，好攪笑！

"Child of Divorce"

 "Divorce won't hurt the children if you do it right. Not surprisingly, the proponents of this theory are parents who have divorced. I have yet to meet or hear of a child of divorce who has bought into it - we know better. There is not a "right way" to do divorce so that no one gets hurt. It may be a nice idea, but the reality simply does not work that way. Our actions have consequences, and one of the consequences of divorce is the battered hearts of children whose homes are broken when marriage vows are abandoned."

"Jeff found himself in a conversation with a recently divorced coworker.
He asked her, "How are your kids doing?"
"Oh, they're doing great," she assured him. "I sat down with each one of them, talked to them about the divorce and asked them how they were feeling. They are all great kids and handling it really well."
"Baloney," Jeff said. "Your kids are lying to you. They're just telling you what you want to hear."
Jeff's blunt reply shocked, even angered, his co-worker.   But later she sought him out and thanked him. After their last conversation, she confronted her children again and found that Jeff was right."

"Part of our struggle with trust stems from the broken trust with our parents. The people who were supposed to model and teach us concepts like trustworthiness, honesty and faithfulness are instead the people who have let us down the most, lied to us most consistently and failed to be there when we most needed them. While their actions were often unintentional, we had front-row seats to observe their failures, and it left many of us with doubts about who can be trusted."

BB朱又進步多步

BB朱以家識自己企係到同bye bye, 好攪笑^O^
(個video黑咗啲，請見諒）

天父

近排睇緊本書叫做"Child of Divorce Child of God",令我諗返起“天父”。

聖經教導我哋，神係我哋嘅天父，而弟兄姊妹會係祈禱當中稱神係天父，或者阿爸父，但天父同阿爸父呢兩個稱呼，唔知點解對我嚟講個感覺好遠，我用唔到嚟稱呼神，因為我成日覺得我已經有爸爸啦，做咩要叫神做爸爸喎，硬係叫唔出。

而我覺得神係我最好最好嘅朋友，可以無所不談，同埋我好信得過佢同愛佢，只係爸爸個稱呼始終apply唔到係神身上，所以我無為以有咩問題。

但係過去呢三年，神開始俾我知道問題所在，點解我硬係稱呼唔到神為天父，呢三年神努力拔起埋藏咗我心底裡面嘅一條刺，然後作出醫治，包紮，讓我完全痊癒。

神讓我知道我其實好嬲爸爸（嬲佢以前點樣傷害媽咪），但另一邊廂我知爸爸好錫我同照顧我，我亦都好愛爸爸，所以好mixed feelings, 但爸爸嘅好，令我自自然然將我對佢嘅嬲怒埋藏咗係我心底好底嘅地方，連我自己都唔記得, 無再挖返出嚟。

神緊係唔想我帶著呢個傷口成世，雖然俾神挖返哂啲嘢出嚟好痛，但係以家望返轉頭係好感恩，神同我返去嗰個傷痛地方，重新開始，而家更加可以freely稱呼神為”天父“或”阿爸父“，令我同神更親近多一步。

表兄弟姊妹聚首一堂

好耐無試過一班係香港由細玩到大嘅表兄弟姊妹一齊約出嚟食飯（尚欠Galex表哥同欣欣表姐），真係好開心呀!  大家都改變咗好多，講下以前講下近況 ，雖然好耐無見，但係其實大家個心仍然好近。